Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in brokenxheart14's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, December 30th, 2003
4:53 pm	* LAZY & SLEEPY * a nice massage or hot tub would be nice what a day.. i woke up and did jack shit. i went to group and i was like 45 minutes late, then i had to take a urine test :-x and then i went home went to bed. i woke up n cleaned my room & went thru my closet, brought up stuff from xmas and other shit that was layin around downstairs. my mom told me last nite that my g-mas tailbone is pokin out onto her skin.. i was like eww thats so nasty. i dont want to go see her anymore becuz i cant bare to look @ her in pain, just rotting there in the nursin home. shes goin mental she doesnt kno who anyone is and she sits there and crys becuz shes scared and lonely. no1 should live like this. it makes me very upset :( I was thinkin a lot about bryce today and how much i really miss him. im not goin to see him till 2005 which sucks ass. he was sucha great friend cuz he knew exactly how i felt and shit. but now i wont be able to see him for 2 years. i started eating healthy today!! i ate a salad for lunch/dinner! it was yummy delicious! :-p My mom said no1 is comin over at all, no matter if she knows them or likes them or whatever, but she said no1 is comin over for the time that im on house arrest becuz ive been smoking.. errrrr fuck im mad bored it sucks sooo much to be on this bullshit. im talkin to gary rite now and he wants me to say somethin about him! - HEY GARY - <333 more quizzes maybe.. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Eminem - I love you more (Comment on this)
Monday, December 29th, 2003
3:23 pm	*BOREDOM SUCKS MY LEFT TIT* tara just left. shes the girl from alliance whos tryin to help me find a job. we were jus talkin bout the new years and what r resolutions are n shit. she was tellin me that the taebo tapes my dad bought me work really good! so i cant wait to get fit! :) im really bored, so im goin to do more quizzez. they are fun lol. meagan, ashley & tony stopped by while tara was here so i told them to come back later and i hope they do cuz im bored as crap. blah.. ill bbl You're TRENDY sexy! You go with all the popular ways and latest styles on what's sexy, whether you mean to or not. This means you'll probably always be sexy! What kind of sexy are you? [For girls only! With Pics! Finally Finished!] brought to you by Quizilla The snobby girl Which girl stereotype are you? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
2:33 pm	The Way You Are brought to you by Quizilla Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno anytime soon. You seem to be really into the whole "love" thing...romantic sex with perfumed sheets and candles all over the place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You value sex and respect your partner too much to do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3 What kind of porno would you star in? brought to you by Quizilla You are Party Girl Paris Hilton! Got blow? If not, you probably know someone who does. If you aren't there, the party hasn't started And after a few drinks, you're up for almost anything. You're so wild - you make Cleveland look like Cancun! Which Paris Hilton Are You? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva (Comment on this)
2:15 pm	>> * THERES NO SUCH THING AS A REAL FRIEND * << it feels like everyone is betraying me and lyin to me lately.. i dunno what to do i have no 1 to turn too. im jus guna give up on everything, i hate life anyway, so y dont i jus lay around n say fuck everythin n everybody else. i love you tho gary! ur my bud :) Current Mood: high (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 28th, 2003
3:04 pm	FUNNY QUiZZEZ 2 KEEP ME BUSY Which flock do you follow? this quiz was made by alanna How random are you? this quiz was made by alanna Do you cluck or do you roar? this quiz was made by alanna What Kind of Cookie Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Colin Farell Please rate this quiz I worked hard on it thanks and I hope that you had fun What Celebirty are you going to MARRY?!(14 outcomes with pics for anyone) brought to you by Quizilla You're ELEGANT sexy! You have a tasteful style, that not only draws attention to you, but gives you respect. Your style is more graceful than that of others. What kind of sexy are you? [For girls only! With Pics! Finally Finished!] brought to you by Quizilla You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never knows what you're going to come up with next; this creates great excitement and arousal never knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end in a kiss as great as your mystery. What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla **********CANT ANYONE SEE THIS ABOUT ME?************** -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ***********CANT ANYONE SEE THIS ABOUT ME?********** (Comment on this)
2:47 pm	LiFE'S A BiTCH 4 REAL yesterday was my moms 54th birthday, she opened her presents and shit. later that nite we were talkin and she said shes never met a person as sad as me. it just makes me feel like shit bcuz all my friends are happy and livin there lives while im stuck at home & cant go out. im just a fuck up thats all i am. and now im even more pissed off becuz i think john got off bein grounded today or whenever becuz alex's away message says that hes chillin with john.. its nice to kno that john doesnt even have the decencency to use his cell phone or a phone in general to call me n see how im doin since i got out of sheppard pratt, let alone it was xmas a couple days ago.. but w/e i dont kno why i keep goin back to him he doesnt even give a shit bout me in my views. i need to talk to him but how am i ever goin to get the chance if he doesnt even fuckin pick up his phone or alexs cell when i fuckin call.. fucked up aint it... this is my life and its a shit hole * i feel like my life is a shit hole again.. it goes away but its always guaranteed to come back u just dont know when. u think everythin is goin just right and then somethin always has to hit u and fuck it up again.. its somethin how life treats u isnt it? I'm not doing great * I feel like I'm dead not thinking straight Inside my body traveled full of hate I had to let it out before its too late Deep Inside < They can't hide > Feeling so lost and betrayed Why does this happen to me everytime Stuck in this place where I can't escape Screaming and calling from deep inside * Theres so much we can take Theres only so much someone can swallow and tolerate To the point that he just breaks, snaps and thats all it takes... * I'm at the end of my noose, I've got nothing to loose. I'm digging my own grave, And thats the truth. My self esteem is low and I'm so high, And I dont give a fuck if I live or die. Just bury myself in my self pity, Can't even get myself to talk to me. I'd kill myself, but it wouldnt help, Can't someone put me out of my misery? I'm going down I was born to die. I'm going down, now I'll say goodbye. Crash Crash It's a hit, it's a bang, it's a smash. Crash Crash It's a hit, it's a bang, it's a smash. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Shania Twain- Forever & always.. yeah 4ever & always my ass (Comment on this)
Friday, December 26th, 2003
9:39 pm	*CuZ i'M dReAMiN oF u ToNiTe....* ahh. im in sucha great mood. my new years resolution is to start a whole new me!! i wana get fit, eat healthy, get a job & have money! lol. i may seem crazy & no1 believes me but ill prove it to u.. theres goin to be some changes in me sometime soon :) not that it matters i wont be able to go out my house but john wont be out of his house for another 3 weeks or so so that gives me 3 weeks to give myself a total makeover, and im goin to love it. :) ive been writin in my journal upstairs bcuz i can actually listen to music(corey let me have this cd he burned. EMiNEM is comin out with a new album soon & i got some songs.. they are mad nice :) :) :) ).. this piece of shit computer-the speakers dont work & the computer is too slow 2 run kazaa. but im goin to go so buh bye Current Mood: determined Current Music: *EMiNEM - Bully* --- ahh EMiNEM SO HOT.. ME WANT TO FUCK! ha (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
1:36 pm	>>>*<<>>*<<< yahhh.. im so not in the mood 4 xmas.. just 4 the presents i guess. i feel like a greedy little fuck. :-p im goin to my g-mas in the city & we r goin to be eatin spegetti & openin presents. i cant wait im so hungry.. hint ::munchies:: i woke up this mornin at lk 8 n then i watched tv and layed down with frisbee.. my baby he is gettin so old n i dont think hes goin to be livin much longer. all my friends make fun of him for his breathin problems & they all dont kno how to be gentle w/ him. im still tryin to learn bout this dumb journal shit but i havent had time to even write in it. i wrote in my paper journal last nite. well im goin to write later..... oh shit.. wait.. i watched the wade robinson project and it was fuckin amazing.. jc chasez from nsync who i dont like anymore sung this fuckin awesome song & it was about sex. it was great! plus the dancin was bad ass i wish i wudda taped it.. oh well :-/ maybe it will be on another day Current Mood: high Current Music: J.C. Chasez song -- ERR IF U KNO IT LET ME KNO! (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 21st, 2003
1:55 pm	*RAVENS GAME!!*.. woot woot! It's the *RAVENS* game today.. Shane is supposed to come over & watch it with me & my dad.. he's not here yet and it's almost 2nd quarter. He's at Cece's work talking to her & not answering his fuckin cell phone.. sometimes people really piss me off. Tomorrow is court & hopefully I get off house arrest because I'm bored as fuck & everyone is going to be having fun on Xmas break and I'll just be sittin @ home. blah. life sucks, so kill urself. my arm still hurts from when i got blood taken at sheppard pratt fuckin almost over 2 weeks ago. im so glad im outta that place it fuckin sucked and i got sick from bein in there. ill write later when more things are goin on.. im still tryin to kno how to work this live journal shit. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)